You can't leave
You won't leave, right?
Are u there or have u gone already?
I cant stand and stare at the leaving you, can i?
Ive stared at so many things, ive seen them moving away, moving fast as everything stood frozen, moving past the teras, the innocence, the spirit which came back to look at it again. To look, to feel, to stare...
All the hate, just to be standing free in a moment.
I saw all that but this...
I cant see this happening.
But will it change anything??
Is this a sign trying to show itself to me from the clouds?
thats the only thing left to stare right?
i wish i could stare at you instead...

I don't even hear when I think aloud
Wearing the darkness with an empty smile :)

Am I holding out, for the day when all the clouds will go away?
When I'm with you again?

But don't i already see clearly through the clouds that covered me?
Torn in all directions? Is there any other direction left?
Would u ever know? Would i ever tell you?
Who are you and why would you care?
and even if u care, what can u do?
You are as helpless as me or perhaps helpless to the cause rather.

Every direction there is hatred. Not that i am scared of it anymore because ive spent so much time with all that but its such a sinking feeling. Not similar to drowning but sinking.

Frozen in these moments while the world passes you by and one day when u look around it would all be so different. like someone waking up from a comma? I saw some signs during that dinner. It was like a bullet train had passed though my head.
I see images in my mind, in my sleep. i wake up and see real images and i cant sleep and when i do i see more images. I hear voices in my sleep, when i am awake i overhear more voices. I see hatred when i am sleeping and hatred when im awake.
Is all this worth it in the end? will it even out eventually?
No its not worth it and nothing can even anything out.
Am i bitter? No i am not bitter , i am just frozen.
I overhear voices...