Mind Blogging

Have you ever had a dream that you were so sure was real?

Now, what if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you then know the difference between the dream world and the real world?

These lines are not just a simple quote from the Matrix but these lines actually sum up some of my thoughts in a very clear way. May be those of you who do not know me closely wouldn't quite really understand what I am trying to say here but that should not stop me from expressing myself today. *Laugh*

I would now want to just laugh at the things that have happened to me today and at the things that happened in the immediate past or even in the distant past for that matter. Also at all the things that now lay ahead. Days ahead are going to be difficult for me. There are questions to be faced and a plan of action to be prepared. I also know that I should not be thinking about all that. May be I shouldn't be thinking at all. I am trying to consider it but I am being a bit careless here now.

Ok so coming back to the Matrix, What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong. You don't know what it is, but its there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad. Remember the part when the character of Morpheus says, you’ve been living in a dream world. He is so very right. We all are in a way. What more our heroes push us into dreaming and then believing that what we dream we will or we can achieve someday and then work towards making your dream real. But I now want to Stand up and see for myself and perhaps see myself from a different perspective. After all there is a definite difference between knowing the path and walking the path.

When I interact with people (I mean people whom I really think are fit enough to interact with). Ok, no I am not an egoistic rude fcuker but one thing that really turns me on or clicks for me is intelligence. Time has made me feel more artistic in my own way than ive ever been. Anyways so coming back to interaction with people, one question which ive heard a lot of amusing and fascinating answers is when I ask people so, whets your one big dream? I never answered them somehow, may be because no one ever asked me. But today I want to write about it in a small way and I hope that I don't hide it in a prose. But very honestly ive never had a dream, may be I should say that I don't just have a dream but I have dreamed a dream.

Ive been considering for a long time about a number of things related to my dream. Is it worth fighting for? Is that worth dying for? Well, u would say it would depend on how badly you want to achieve it. But ive always felt that unless I enjoy the journey it’s going to be a torture even if the destination turns out to be Silky smooth. May be I was just waiting for some sounds of inevitability but all this while I feel like ive been living two lives. One in flesh and blood and the other I behind this thinking mind. But only one of these lives has a future, and one of them does not. Night after night I am sitting by your computer but my first mask is slowly taking over my mind. I am really trying to get the second mask take over my mind and heart. This is a constant struggle within me these days.

I know that the answer is out there and it's looking for me and it will find me only if I just allow it to. In the coming days I am going to try with all my might the let the answer find me and then move along on my special journey to the place where dreams can breed.

This is not some god damn dreamy talk or bullshit, I know it has a prose behind it all and I don't even know the reason to add this to my blog because I hardly have any visitors here but today I just wrote this because I wanted to write just like I wanted to laugh earlier in my blog.

Cheers ;)

You

You can have your fears, you can have your moments of doubt, but you can never be a coward. You have to face your fears, you have to overcome your moments of doubt, you have to believe that if you look for it there is always a solution. If you really want something, the whole universe is going to conspire to help you. But to do that, you have to be brave. Brave enough to fight for things that are meaningful to you. Not meaningful to A, B or C, but to you.