Explain...

How do you explain your urge to visit those pages knowing the fact that you would be traced. Is it some kind of a Sadistic feeling?
How does it feel... How does it feel?
Does it feel?
i wish i could talk about this to someone.

Free Falling

I have found out that nothing matters in the end. No vibes are ever accumulated. yeah i have accumulated a lot of stuff inside me but all i have is a faceless face to share it with. its wierd when you can see youself being sucked into a real black hole but you try each passing day. There is no hope but you muster all the heroism to start trying with every breath. There are momentary setbacks but your climb continues but only one small problem, the mind doesnt not believe you. i have always supressed my voilent side but its not in my power anymore. From now on there is going to be a sharp fall. There is going to be no more climb. May be i can atleast witness some free fall and instead of stopping it just fall freely into the hole.