I don't even hear when I think aloud
Wearing the darkness with an empty smile :)

Am I holding out, for the day when all the clouds will go away?
When I'm with you again?

But don't i already see clearly through the clouds that covered me?
Torn in all directions? Is there any other direction left?
Would u ever know? Would i ever tell you?
Who are you and why would you care?
and even if u care, what can u do?
You are as helpless as me or perhaps helpless to the cause rather.

Every direction there is hatred. Not that i am scared of it anymore because ive spent so much time with all that but its such a sinking feeling. Not similar to drowning but sinking.

Frozen in these moments while the world passes you by and one day when u look around it would all be so different. like someone waking up from a comma? I saw some signs during that dinner. It was like a bullet train had passed though my head.
I see images in my mind, in my sleep. i wake up and see real images and i cant sleep and when i do i see more images. I hear voices in my sleep, when i am awake i overhear more voices. I see hatred when i am sleeping and hatred when im awake.
Is all this worth it in the end? will it even out eventually?
No its not worth it and nothing can even anything out.
Am i bitter? No i am not bitter , i am just frozen.
I overhear voices...