I feel like i am going to die soon. I feel blank and without any enthusiasm at all. I feel this feeling is SO real right now. You cry when ur hurt because you want to be in the positive zone raher than the low but i dont feel like crying. i cant feel any difference.
All those tears would go to waste.
The world has already won and i just have to acknowledge it perhaps.
Concede defeat?
self Destruct?
but would that help? even if it is momentary, it can be worth it.
But i found some love?
Is that misplaced?
will it survive?
Would i just die?
Should i just wait?
or
i hate this.
I wish i had some hope, something.
i am trying all avenues.
All blocked?
Everything shows me one road
The road to destruction
or
would it be an end to the misery?
I had nothing in life but atleats i had some dreams which made me walk trough the abuses and the hatred and all the stuff i face each day.
Now i cant dream.
i feel dead already.